// INTRO
James 1:2-4
1:2
My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations;
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Knowing [this], that the trying of your faith worketh patience.
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But let patience have [her] perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.
// It's a Battle
- From last Sunday evening until the following Wednesday night, I was in heaviness and
stress, above what's normal
- I was carrying around guilt and a bit of self-loathing
- Because I felt, at the time, that I had been failing miserably as a man of God
- Because I had not accomplished a number of tasks that I had set out to do
- And so, I felt like a failure, both to God and my family
- I was so very worn down, emotionally
- I felt beaten and battered, inside, and almost completely broken
- I knew that it was Prayer Night, that night, and was very much longing to get there
- Because I desperately needed to connect with God
- So He could straighten me out and tell me where I went wrong
- Maybe I could receive some mercy and grace, both, from Him and maybe He could even
fix me
- When we arrived, and church started, Pastor made a comment that helped me:
- "Sometimes, before we can have good prayer, we have push out the clutter in our
minds, from the day."
- I whole-heartedly agreed with him... ESPECIALLY that night! It was a good start!
- When the prayer started, I began doing what a good pentacostal does and began praying
like a good pentacostal prays
- ... and I did not like any of it.
- It all felt like rehersed church rhetoric and parroting
- Like I was bringing a big bag of wooden nickels to the Lord and calling it gold
- So I forced all the churchy rhetoric out of my head and simply said...
- "God, I've got nothing for you, tonight..."
- I've got nothing to give you.
- I'm beaten and battered on the inside, and I'm empty and broken.
- I just love You, Jesus
- I just need You to be here with me, now
- Because I have failed so much, these past few days
- And I know You know that.
- And I'm so sorry.
- I just love you repeats
- I kept saying that to Him, pacing back and forth in the kitchen
- Then... He spoke.
- "You have not failed"
- Me: "uh... are we watching the same movie?"
- I was a bit confused about His assessment
- But you know, when He said that, it was the best news that I had heard all week!
- And right after He said that, God touched two recent memories and sparked them to
life in my mind
- and I immediately remembered two things that I had set out to do
- Two very important changes that I decided that I was going to make in my life, within
myself
- I told nobody about them. They were kept between God and myself
- But I had accomplished BOTH of them, up to that point
- and still today they remain accomplished details
irrelevant
- But when I saw that, He said, "The reason you feel so beaten and battered... "
- "is because when you set out to those things, consistantly,... "
- "the enemy has been consistantly attacking you with a tremendous onslaught"
- "Because they did not want you to accomplish those things"
- "You feel like a failure because you've been attacked so much"
- And that's all He said... and the rest of prayer night was excellent!
- But you know, I'm also interested in what He didn't say
- He didn't say anything about the details of what I perceived as failures
- He didn't lecture me about all the times I lost my footing
- He didn't acknowledge any of it!
// Not a
Slaughter
John 8:3-5
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And the scribes and Pharisees brought unto him a woman taken in adultery; and when they had set her
in the midst,
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They say unto him, Master, this woman was taken in adultery, in the very act.
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Now Moses in the law commanded us, that such should be stoned: but what sayest thou?
- "What do YOU say, Jesus?"
- "Well, if anyone here has never sinned before, start throwing rocks and be first
in line."
- Noticed He didn't say, "Anyone that's never committed adultry before"
- So everyone felt convicted and left
- and He continues...
John 8:10b-11
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... he said unto her, Woman, where are
those thine accusers? hath no man condemned thee?
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She said, No man, Lord. And Jesus said unto her, Neither do I condemn thee: go, and sin no more.
- He never said anything about the adultry!
- She obviously felt plenty of her own conviction, her very recent sin being
put on display
- Don't forget, there were other people there, too!
- So He just told her she's not condemned, not to sin anymore, and to go on her way,
free!
- You know, we tend to lose sight of good things because we're so focused on the bad
- Because the bad things stand out like a sore thumb idiom
reference
- That's what happened to me
- I thought for sure that God was very disappointed in my recent performance
- But the thing is, you don't fight battles without getting wounded, somehow
- Or at the very least, tired and worn out!
1st Peter 4:12
Beloved, think it not strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange
thing happened unto you:
- Fiery trials aren't unusual!
- Fighting battles is par for the course!
Romans 7:15, 18-25 (AMP)
7:15
I do not understand my own actions [I am baffled, bewildered]. I do not practice or accomplish
what I wish, but I do the very thing that I loathe [which my moral instinct condemns].
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For I know that nothing good dwells within me, that is, in my flesh. I can will what is
right, but I
cannot perform it.
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For I fail to practice the good deeds I desire to do, but the evil deeds that I do not desire to do
are what I am constantly doing.
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Now if I do what I do not desire to do, it is no longer I doing it [it is not myself that acts], but
the sin [principle] which dwells within me [ fixed and operating in my soul].
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So I find it to be a law (rule of action of my being) that when I want to do what is right and good,
evil is ever present with me and I am subject to its insistent demands.
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For I endorse and delight in the Law of God in my inmost self [with my new nature].
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But I discern in my bodily members [in the sensitive appetites and wills of the flesh] a different
law (rule of action) at war against the law of my mind (my reason) and making me a prisoner to the
law of sin that dwells in my bodily organs [in the sensitive appetites and wills of the flesh].
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O unhappy and pitiable and wretched man that I am! Who will release and deliver me from [the
shackles of] this body of death?
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O thank God! [He will!] through Jesus Christ (the Anointed One) our Lord! So then indeed I, of
myself with the mind and heart, serve the Law of God, but with the flesh the law of sin.
Romans 5:1-5
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Therefore being justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ:
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By whom also we have access by faith into this grace wherein we stand, and rejoice in hope of the
glory of God. Well, I wasn't doing that, for those three days...
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And not only [so], but we glory in tribulations also: CERTAINLY wasn't doing
that! knowing that tribulation worketh patience;
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And patience, experience; and experience, hope:
- Those are the spoils of spiritual battles... and they end in us having HOPE!
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And hope maketh not ashamed; because the love of God is shed abroad in our hearts by the Holy Ghost
which is given unto us.
- If you endeavor to fight the good fight of faith, you'll have hope at the end!
- Because the love of God is shed abroad in our hearts!
- We have that love before, during, and after the battles!
- We have that love when we're winning fights AND when we're being wounded or tripped
up!
- Because His grace is sufficient and His strength is made perfect in our weakness!
- Now look, I'm not saying that God doesn't correct us
- But when He does, it is a VERY different experience from when we're attacked by the
enemy or ourselves
Hebrews 12:11-13
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Now no chastening for the present seemeth to be joyous, but grievous: nevertheless afterward it
yieldeth the peaceable fruit of righteousness unto them which are exercised thereby.
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Wherefore lift up the hands which hang down, and the feeble knees;
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And make straight paths for your feet, lest that which is lame be turned out of the way; but let it
rather be healed.
// Closing
- That's what we need to do, right now.
- If you've been in a battle and you think it's because you're weak... you're right!
- But His grace is sufficient for you and His strength is made PERFECT in your
weakness!
- His strength is COMPLETED and your battle is won!